I want to wish everyone a Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year. Work has once again prevented me from keeping this site updated this past week, but I'm sure everyone knows how the holidays are quite busy.
My Family has made it through our first set of holidays without our mother and we did just fine, with minimal tears. We reminisced about all the good times and the love that will carry on for the rest of our lives.
Well it's finally Friday. I don't know about everyone else, but it has been a very long week. I'm not sure if it's just the knowledge that next week we have a slight break (and everyone knows that not much work is going to be accomplished because of that (for the next two weeks.))
I doubt if I will post much this weekend due to the fact that I am planning on working on my studies and getting some writing done.
I hope everyone has a wonderful weekend and I will check back on Monday!
Well, here in Oklahoma it's one foggy day. I would put some pun about Santa and Rudolph but since I write mainly horror most people wouldn't like what I have in mind.
I'm sitting here at work, staring out my office window at the pond across the street. I know the pond is there because I've walked my dog over there a few times, yet the fog is so thick that you can't see it, hell you can't even see the road between our parking lot and the small park there.
As a horror writer, lots of things come to mind, the Christmas season be damn, I'm thinking Horror! No matter how much cheer you try and pump into my veins I can create something twisted and/or sick out of the situation.
Did I mention how I love foggy days and the fog is suppose to be here throughout the day and into the night which is a very rare occasion here.
Well back to work and back to thinking up nice scenarios that go with the fog.
It's sad when you know you really should be writing (or working,) yet can find all kinds of stuff not to do either one. I have planned on getting my assignment done for school and one, possibly two short stories reworked and sent off to a couple of magazines.
Each time I sit down to actually work on one or the other, I just keep thinking what's the point? The way my lives is going, nobody would actually like them or want to publish. I know it's a common feeling, the self loathing, self pity, Oh-I'm-not-any-good syndrome that 90% of all writers go through. I hope by releasing these feelings in my blog I will find the courage to complete what I've started.
Speaking of courage, a lot of what people say I fear is the Fear of Success. What will happen to my life. Will I plummet after the first story? Well, we shall see because I'm not going to give up. Hell I can't. I have too many people pushing me forward.
Sometimes it's great being able to write or play games while at work, but mostly it's very distracting for work purposes. Here I am trying to get my work done, but all I can think about is my writing. I start writing and BAM, all I can think about is the game I play online. I start playing it and start feeling guilty and go back to doing my work, and then the cycle starts all over again.
Is there a happy medium? I sure hope I am able to find it. On a good note, I do get my work done in a timely manner so I don't have to feel too guilty about it. Thank the powers that be I type fast.
See everyone tomorrow :)
As many people have probably noticed, it's been awhile since I've actually written anything. I've done many outlines, but since my mother's death I haven't been able to wrap my mind around things for too long at a time.
I am going to start fresh. I have done some deep soul searching over the past few week's, especially with the holidays upon us and have come to terms with my grief. I know my mother wouldn't have wanted me to sit and mope around all the time. Hell, she was my biggest fan and inspiration.
Well, I'm going to let her memory be my inspiration from now on. Life is short and I'm not going to waste anymore.
I would like to thank everyone for comments of the past and I hope you will stick with me in the new year and see what my twisted mind can come up with.
I will let you know that I am currently working on several projects at once. School for one. I have to get that finished before they kick me out. I have three assignments left so I'm going to plunge into that.
I'm also working on an idea for a series of books that I will be sharing excerpts occasionally. Plus the occasional short story or two as well.
I'm going to be working on a new format for the site as well.
